I made a decision... I decided before going away on an couples only wino weekend with some dear friends that I will have a good time. Weird huh. I know. So what goes through the mind of a 200 lbs+ momma anticipating 40+ weather? A million and five things:
Less clothes = less confident
Kelowna = a hot bed of hot bods
200+lbs = super sweat like a swimming pool in your pants
200+lbs = 2 plus size clothing options: 80 year old grandma clothes or barely there
Beach = bathing suit and all my wibbly bits out
Sun = lots of sunscreen and irritability on high
40+ heat = chaffing
40+ heat = perpetual red in the face
Going with normal-sized friends = odd man out
Continental breakfast = eating in front of your friends and the public
Communal lunches and dinners = eating in front of your friends and the public
Walking around, being in the public eye = fear of public shaming and staring
Having a normal-size husband at my side = husband must have a fetish for fat chicks
Drunk people = saying stupid mean things
And more...
But you know what I made a decision. I made up my mind that I am going to have a good time. All those horrible thoughts floated away as I turned them over. I said, "Hey Universe, here are my depressive thoughts, take them, because I will not need them."
In a nutshell... I had an amazing time.
You are amazing. <3
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